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"A collection of raw, heartfelt poems—some penned when I was just 13 capturing the emotions, thoughts, and growing pains of youth, life, and betterment of the world. Honest, reflective, and deeply personal."
Enjoy…
1.Love Ain’t Love
2.My Mind Is Hurt
3.Sad Smile
4.Vision
5.Therapy
6.Shapes & Colors
7.Summer While Black
8.Love Lottery
9.Poetic Nightmares
TABLE OF CONTENTS
LOVE AINT LOVE
Love ain’t love
Girls ain’t girls
Men ain’t men
Friends ain’t friends
Wins ain’t wins
Sins still sins
Good still good
just be real with it
so the next ain’t gotta deal with it
I just wanna love
without the complications
love ain’t love
without the complications
love ain’t love
without the dedication
slaying hate and fixing mates cause everyday can end who gonna call when your less of a freind
So I gotta do right
So I gotta feel right
I been feeling down
I been writing just to feel up
But the up ain’t enough
so I’m falling back down
I’ve been hurt so many times
I can’t trust nobody
I’m just staring in the mirror
Ima be somebody
MY MIND IS HURT
Pushing pain to the side
cause I ain’t wanna cry
Pushing love to the side
cause I’m tired of lies
She hate love
But she still try
Cause when she try love fr
people still lie
I ask why
Cause I know God real
and people still lie
My mind is hurt
I finally confessed
this a confession
I hate my life right now
I know it’ll get better
Tryna hold it in as a man
I hope someone understands
when you all alone
this song uh hit harder
Everybody using sex
for escape
Nobody really straight
we keep our pride getting high
cause we ain’t scared to die
cause we dead inside
the grave I cry
my soul resides
this life I made
taking stuff to the grave
this guilt I slave
this guilt I made
Listen look
my soul has departed
I left it in my old girl
that’s my old world
I hate what we started
life so long
when will it end
I hate these sins
times 10
mathematic revelation
revelatory devastation
people change
for the worst
is this a curse
from my past lives
I died so many times
in this one life
you only get one life
one life to get it right
Why God
Made this life so hard
My mind hurt
this song a regard
a game of spades
with a king card
I still lose
Peace of mind
I still choose
yet my mind in pieces
yet my heart in pieces
and everybody get a piece
I can’t get no peace
I’m dying inside
to grave I cry
my soul resides
prayers to the sky
for this hurt mind
My mind is hurt
For the better
One day it will get better
Thank you
SAD SMILE
Sometimes
we lose
Sometimes we win
some days we good
More days we sin
I wish I had
Fans
That can really understand
Pain run deep
We can all take a stand
10 toes down
my locs dancing in the wind
we all DNA
if you reading
then you kin
Sad smile
We all got one
I celebrate life when I sleep
Cause I know I’m having dreams
that can come reality
The power of ya mind
Can cure a sad smile
You smiling at work
You smiling At church
You smiling at ya girl
You smiling at the world
but when you get home
what that feel like
do it feel right
another night
just to wipe
tears in ya eyes
smile as disguise
making people smile
cause you know the feeling
you a healer and youn know you healing
what goes up
Goes down
What comes around
Silent sounds
Is how it creep up
Sinning just to keep up
I talk too much
I love too much
Still haven’t got enough
Still haven’t got enough
Still haven’t got no love
Sad smiles is how I keep up
sinning just to keep up
Sometimes
we lose
Sometimes we win
some days we good
More days we sin
I wish I had
Fans
Than can really understand
Pain run deep
We can all take a stand
10 toes down
my locs dancing in the wind
we all DNA
if you reading
then you kin
Sad smile
We all got one
VISION
Vision is poison
Temptation will kill you
life is a fairy tale
the shadow the real you
with no sun
how can your father
reveal you
night time heavy
weight in your dreams
it’s only the real you
wait
time is power
time is lies
live or die
dying is first
dying of sin
is dying of thirst
which is worst
we all cry
mentally a genocide
genocide
where to run and hide
spiritual pain
equal spiritual gain
living is fame
in god eyes
clout is a drought
robe and a choir
just need a church lady shout
preach
if I teach then I teach
social experiment
no excuse for the reach
this ain’t for the weak
from a wolf to a sheep
this is deep
prefrontal cortex
learning is a flex
if I’m next
that’s a bet for the rest
not betting is a debt
bet on yourself
cause less is a gift
too still is a death
moving is a check
and a check
up and down
right back up ✔️
I’m guess taking too much
Thank God that y’all listen
Thank God that it’s written
Thank God for the mission
Thank God for the vision
20/20 in a sentence
I’m seeing words in the distance
THERAPY
You ever had ya heart broken?
You feeling like ya heart stolen?
you gave them a second chance
now it starts to feel potent
You ever been broke before ?
You feeling likes it no hope
Knowing that the world ending
Use a smile just to cope
Climb a rope just to get heaven
Go down a slide just to get to hell
it’s some sins we will never tell
go to the grave
for we ever tell
The eyes never lie thug
Watch ya friends
for you die thug
change ya life for ya kids thug
that’s why you still here thug
its wars still going on
it’s families can’t get along
everybody got a sex addiction
watch ya words
cause the birds and the bees listen
cheating is a cry for help
mental sickness
over things they will never feel
sex is a seal
soul bond deal
walking death will
they’ll rather feel
for they ever heal
real life
all our souls
is so pure
show love
that’s a world cure
never snake
cause this real life
cop a wife
for you tell a lie
real life
it’s power in ya mind girl
don’t let him break ya mind girl
better leave before you cry girl
if you crying right now
stop crying girl
absent father
don’t let it stop you
broken family
don’t let it rob you
keep going
or these things
will haunt you
you gotta want too
for it ever comes too
real life
I can’t trust nobody
SHAPES AND COLORS
She was bullied for her skin
She hurting inside
The make up make her lighter
Yet she losing her pride
She dating guys in which she thought she love
Those guys come from broken hearts
so they don’t know no love
She having sex more
Tryna take the pain away
she was a sunshine
now she a rainy day
the sex made her just as wet
never the same day
too many feelings
to feel a another way
another different
indifference is different
nobody wanna get it
nobody wanna listen
But I can listen
talk ya flaws to me
Cause I got flaws too
Nobody’s perfect
I wish that people knew
Some say that god real
Some say the god fake
But I know heaven real
let’s look at each other
let’s protect each other
let’s uplift each other
let’s collect together
we all shapes & colors
pretty girl
but she a lil big
she a lil jealous
she ain’t like other girls
she hate her weight
they hate they gotta wait
she ain’t easy
she know how guys is
they want her on the side
but never outside
yea she use to cry
now she outside
maybe a lil wild
her confidence beaming
her confidence loud
her loud a different meaning
she a different feeling
don’t judge nobody
cause a nobody
can be somebody
we all gotta lil flaw on the inside
cause the inside is nothing
like the outside
the outside is really mess up
cause you judge somebody
because you insecure
but ya insecurities is
child memories that was sent to you
that was sent to me
for me to write about
just to set you free
possibly you can think better
or even love more
or even feel better
or even
wipe ya eyes sometime
cause sometimes
can be a last time
we can all be fine
we all shapes and colors
we different others
from different mothers
we all shapes colors
SUMMER WHILE BLACK
Sun still shining
Black on my skin
Life still fast
The clouds blowing in the wind
Ex still mad
I’m happy that she left
Nights all all alone
I can finally be myself
Sex all around
Do I wanna do it
Money still around
Which one to choose
Summer while black
Dying make you lose
But if I lose
Will I still be around
Will my name still ring
Put crowns on our halos
Dead as a King
But a king still live on
If he real then he real
If he fake then he hate
keep going never wait
consistent is your fate
Hot as hell
summer fun ring bells
rainy days
a kiss and tell
but a tale gon snitch
her mans gon cheat
and his girl on a list
death a breath away
hope every bullet miss
Summer while black
Black on my skin
Locs still long
The clouds blowing in the wind
everybody sins
everybody tells
nobody really won
we just wanna have fun
everybody sins
everybody tells
nobody really won
we just wanna have fun
Summer while black
We just wanna have fun
Put down the guns
smile more
we all one
we all won
we don’t know no better
LOVE LOTTERY
She been hurt so many times
she can’t trust nobody
he been crossed by his ex
so he can’t love nobody
heart for heart
they both need somebody
they both need a hug
they both need love
really need God
they don’t understand
really needa a friend
they calling who they can
then he come back
he acting like he missing her
kissing her
2nd chance once again
he feeling her
he telling lies
2nd try
she telling lies
3rd try they still lying
4th try they both crying
5th try they really done
6th try they back again
7th try it’s too much
8th try they give up
Love ain’t love
Girls ain’t girls
Men ain’t men
Friends ain’t friends
Wins ain’t wins
Sin still sin
Good still good
Love can feel like a lottery
love can feel like a lottery
One things for certain
we can love ourselves
do we love ourselves *
we give our selves
just to hate our selves
this our mental
this our health
this is pain
this is wealth
I’m talking rubys from the brain
this is breath
this a lesson
this a gift
this is life
what a gift
say a prayer
we need help
we need hugs
we need love
cause love is a lottery
and one things for certain we can love ourselves
POETIC NIGHTMARES
Just wanna gain the world
and still keep my soul
eyes seen a lot
is this a secondary toll
I thought I paid the toll
when I was going through a lot
and God maybe stop
all I had was to stop
God gave me grace
Ima rose through a concrete
just needed me a vase
I’m in a better place
I can’t go to waste
if reading this reflection to the face
you could feel what I’m saying
hope you really praying
I had poetic nightmares
turnt to reality
that’s what sad to me
I had to be gradually
that was sad to me
dreams a set me free
my dreams was a scare
life ain’t fair
I’m still here
sin in my ear
God what I fear
every word is a tear
writing to myself
writing for my health
Therapy
this is fair to me
don’t be scared of me
a ghost in a host
I’m doing for the most
I can’t get high if I try
I’m just tryna get by
without a cry
healthy or not
a lie is lie
and the truth is the truth
writing as the sun fall
staring at the sky
scared to say a prayer
but I ain’t scared to write a line
my soul in the words
vibrations in the tone
rhythm in my bones
might as well write a song
if they read a poem
will they ever get along
will ever get the words
over things that I heard
blessing my mental
over similes and verbes
sacred people of the earth
living is a verse
real life bible
…
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words is power
we don’t got long to live
I give while I’m here
mirror
…
I’m soon to blow
real thoughts on the low
if I don’t live to tell
atleast they knew
verbally nervous
beyond the bracket
proportional will
will power is heal power
godly turns
sin is burns
kids is your kids
but you couldn’t wait your turn
sex before marriage
living is a hectic
the mind is a treasure
over things that we pleasure
but pleasure is granted
amongst the people that left
and left ain’t left
and right really wrong
and straight is your friend
but friends don’t get along
still
let my words be the food
you consume
when feeling damage
let my words be the greatest
thing
to make you read
sing
maybe sing
when no one’s looking
write the next line
with your mind thinking
________________
________________
if it was positive
then you very welcome
if it was negative
it’s double blinking
if you didn’t write anything
stop
the double thinking
stop pretending
from being offended
revenge of the fittest
the lesson of everyone
the courage of everyone
the voice of a god
earth moon and sun
mistakes and depression
rise through every lesson
don’t love me
love yourself
forget the heavens be
rise up through veins of eyes
the I’s is enough
resentment can turn deep depression
forget the depression
run for the answers rise up
through the stripes you earned
we can love ourselves
do we love ourselves *
we give our selves
just to hate our selves
this our mental
this our health
this is pain
this is wealth
I’m talking rubys from the brain
this is breath
this a lesson
this a gift
this is life
what a gift
say a prayer
we need help
we need hugs
we need love
wake me from this dream
this a drug
in a Poetic Nightmare…
The End
Thank you so much for reading. I’d really love to know what you thought of the book—especially which poem was your favorite! Your feedback means a lot and helps me grow as a writer. Feel free to reach out and share your thoughts!
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